Okay… I am mad (borderline pissed off). Yeah, I’m highly angry right now. I have weighed again and it appears that over the past 4 to 5 days I’ve gained 3 lbs back. What really upsets me about this is the fact that I’ve cut back on the amount of food I eat. I’m more conscious of what I eat. And, I’ve even been exercising some (some is a lot more than I was doing). But, I guess it’s just not enough. This is so discouraging. Since I started this diet I’ve only gone over 1 day on my calorie intake (and that wasn’t by but a few calories) and maybe 1 or 2 days on my fat intake (again a very miniscule amount)…but does that matter? Apparently NOT. I take that back. I’m not borderline pissed off… I AM PISSED OFF.
I am at war with my fat now. If it wants a fight…a fight is what I’m going to give it. IT WILL NOT WIN OVER MY MIND AND MY DRIVE. NOT THIS TIME. Damnit! If it takes walking or stair stepping til I pass out; then so be it. Come 2010 I will be at least 275 lbs. I WILL. Screw you FAT. You’ve messed with me long enough…and you’ve won out long enough. I hate you.
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