March 5, 2009

I’m finding myself getting back into bad habits.  Last night I started eating when I shouldn’t be eating…  After a bit of venison steak, lima beans, carrots, and 3 (yeah I said 3) pieces of bread; I then had a bowl of cereal and 3 oranges.  I felt bad about it, and I still do.  I’m going to make a conscious effort today to get enough orange water into my system.  Hopefully that will make me feel less hungry.

I was doing really well until I got sick last week.  Not sure if that’s what caused me to slowly lapse back into the almost irresistible urge to eat or not.  But, something has pushed me back to that bad place.  Perhaps it could be the monotony of eating some of the same stuff all the time…?  I doubt that’s it, because I actually LOVE some of the stuff I eat!  I’m going to blame this one on the lack of water and the sinuses / cold that I had Friday through Monday.  But, if it continues to happen I will undoubtedly have to pause to tell myself that I need to FOCUS.  I haven’t come this far to fail.

Along with the urge to eat uncontrollably, I’ve also noticed that my attitude is starting to slip back to the way it was.  I’m getting pissy more easily than I have been.  I am honestly trying my best to control my attitude, but it is difficult to control my eating habits AND my mood at the same time.  They’re probably intertwined somehow…perhaps I should just focus on the eating habits and the other will work itself out.  One can only hope!

Anyway, I walked this morning.  I feel pretty good today (aside from the morning pissiness).  Hopefully I’ll find out today what kind of money I can get for my trombone…and hopefully will be on my way to getting a bright and shiny new silver Euphonium!!!  I’m excited about that!  I’ve been wanting to play one for SOOOO long now.